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Marsha Blasgen's avatar

Beautiful vision, everlasting change. May your words be blessed with many eyes soaking in your revelations boldly presented without restraint. Artistic vision doesn't need the lenses of mushrooms and enhanced THC. Just the freedom to follow the Divine guide to and through the Light. Merry Christmas , I appreciate you ❣️

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Clintavo's avatar

Thank you!

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Takim Williams's avatar

Thanks for this! I can't help but ask: have you yourself experienced ego death? Or do you merely yearn for it?

My favorite part was the way the pleasure that the "I" felt in its achievements became increasingly painful, as if the flowing energy of the universe simply could not be contained in the character's narrow conception of self. The I senses the light as a threat... and it's right! The light will indeed destroy the small-minded ego and force an expansion into something new and more true.

I'm literally in this phase of my life right now, where the pain of holding onto certain things is swelling, and the only question left is: how bad is it going to get before killing the current version of myself hurts less than the pain of clinging to it? (Basically I read your "KILL ME!" line as a description of rock bottom, and the passage around it as an explanation for why hitting rock bottom is often necessary to motivate change. Would you agree?)

Whenever I run across an author whose work resonates with mine on multiple levels, I make sure to pitch a piece I know they'd like. You'll love my equally trippy sci-fi serial: https://open.substack.com/pub/takimwilliams/p/hello-my-other-hello-my-self-encapsulation?r=17mz6p&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=false

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Clintavo's avatar

I guess I've had "baby" ego deaths in meditation, and, increasingly, in real life when I start to get upset about something and then my higher self "catches me" and I experience a sort of mini-death and resurrection. But nothing sustained outside of meditation. This story was trippy to write because I meditated one day and then just sat down with no idea, no plan and it just came out on it's own. It felt like I was channeling knowledge that was a bit beyond my experience. I agree the "kill me" is hitting rock bottom which I kinda did at one point which started my spiritual journey in earnest. Thank you for the link, I've added it to my evening/weekend reading list. Thank you for your comment!

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SunshineToRoses's avatar

Light is come into the world but men loved darkness. Indeed, chose the light! Merry Christmas!

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Clintavo's avatar

Merry Christmas!

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Schlesier Grace's avatar

Love the depths of your creative visions. Unto Us a Child is Born as we celebrate the Christ Child this Christmas. May the beauty of Peace be with you and all of us holding the God child close.

God Bless, Merry Christmas.

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Clintavo's avatar

Merry Christmas!

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Carolyn Zbavitel's avatar

Merry Christmas Clint! That was wild, very creative!

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Clintavo's avatar

Merry Christmas! Yes, it was a wild experience writing it. It just kinda flowed out of "nowhere" (and no, I wasn't on some kind of psychedelic)

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